COVID-19 Humanity Betrayal ㅤ Memory Project

Dan first got sick after Labor Day 2021. I followed suit a few days later. He didn’t want to get tested. In view of the fact that he is never sick, I thought just some rest and push the fluids and we would be good. He didn’t seem to improve so I kept trying to get through to the frontline doctors for help. I finally spoke with a doctor on Sept. 16 and the pharmacy on Sept 17 but they couldn’t get the HCQ and ivermectin to us until Monday the 20th.

On Saturday evening his oxygen dropped to the low 60s. I had heard a little about what was happening elsewhere but couldn’t believe it would have infected our local hospital. I didn’t know what else to do but get him to the ER for oxygen. I wasn’t allowed to be with him and when I finally talked to a perky young nurse about how he was doing. She told me they had him on remdesivir. I told her I wanted him off of it. She told me I would have to speak to a doctor which wasn’t happening on a Sunday. She also told me he had fallen out of bed which makes me think he was trying to get up to leave.

On Monday the 20th the ivermectin and H CQ arrived. I finally talked to our primary care physician and he wanted me to come to the hospital. His sister and I went over. We had to suit up with two masks, gloves, and smock. We were allowed into the glass enclosed room Dan was in. They had him on the high flow oxygen and restrained because he kept trying to remove the high flow. He was very restless.

The PCP wanted to put him on the vent so he could rest. I wanted him off Remdesivir and on  HCQ and  ivermectin. If they weren’t going to give it to him then I wanted to take him home. The PCP said that he would die if I did that. I was so upset that we left. After I left the hospital the PCP called me to try to persuade me to put him on the vent. I said I would only agree to the vent if he took him off remdesivir and put him on HCQ and ivermectin.

He painfully agreed and put those orders on his chart. He also ordered that Dan be given a large dose of morphine. Of which I didn’t know about until the next day when another young nurse told me that they couldn’t rouse him. After that  Dan was never responsive again.  They put Dan on the vent in ICU.

Next morning I found out that some young nurse whose title I can’t recall removed those orders and kept him on remdesivir. From that point I insisted that she be off his case as she kept telling me that he only has a 10% chance of getting out of the ICU. We dealt with doctors either pulmonary and/or infectious disease from then on. Finally after getting into ICU they gave him a feeding tube. We were only allowed to FaceTime with Dan at this point until the one young nurse accused us of taping it. We were taping it so that family that could not be on the call could see it later.

She became very irate and we had to make other arrangements with the hospital’s computer to try to see him. From this point it was all down hill. He had to be put on dialysis and they had to put a port in his neck fora caustic drug to raise his blood pressure. On October 4 I was told that we could be with him. One family member at a time. So his sister, daughter and I split the time as only 1 person could be there at a time. Two nurses from wound care came in earlier on October 5 to treat bed sores that he had on his back side. Then in the afternoon the doctor came in and suggested to put him on comfort care. I can’t remember exactly but I think then was when he verbally asked if I wanted DNR.
Within  just seconds after removing everything he was hooked to, he was gone.